Endless Patience?

There are days where I feel like I have endless patience. I feel as though my precious little girl can do no wrong… I can read her favorite book on a loop forever and be totally cool with it. I can pick up all the food she has thrown on the floor and smile at her mischievous side. I will even play along as she tries to pull my hair. If she is not into napping I can peacefully rock her to sleep… and then there are moments where I am just … so over it! Today I am having one of those moments… Perhaps it is the fact that it has been rainy for what seems like forever. Maybe because N has been gone for a few days, possibly because I see photos of friends having fun at stampede or on summer vacations and I feel stuck at home… Whatever the reason… if I have to read one more story about how “bunny loves to play” or pick up one more piece of thrown food… well lets be honest I’m not going to do anything… I’m just not loving it today.

The worst part about not loving my time with the munchkin is knowing that all to soon I won’t have these moments with her! That’s when the guilt sets in… shouldn’t I be cherishing everything? Shouldn’t I be making the most of every moment? And then I tell myself “it’s okay… it’s okay to not love every minute!” The vast majority of time, we have a great time together and I do love it… so today I am going to cut myself some slack. Rather than clean up her massive mess while she is sleeping I am going to eat ice cream and watch Netflix. And after her nap we will see what happens!

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7 thoughts on “Endless Patience?

  1. I have two and am pregnant with my third. I don’t think I’ve felt endless patience since my first was a baby. Give yourself grace, mama. It’s okay for your daughter to learn mommy’s boundaries. It sounds like you’re doing a great job! 🙂

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  2. Don’t beat yourself up about it. We ALL have those days. Sometimes its so exhausting and thankless that we just need a break. Definitely, spoil yourself rotten when she is napping or down for the night. Be selfish during that time and it will help you be more in tune with the mom stuff the next day. Big hugs!!!

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    1. Thanks for the kind words! I was totally having one of those days… Today is so much better! I just wanted people to know that it is totally normal to feel the way I was feeling (and will most likely feel again!)!

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  3. Oh the mother guilt! It’s such a curse but it is because we love them so much. We have strings of days like that and then it’s all good. Sometimes none of us work well together, but we always say tomorrow will be a better day. Enjoy putting your feet up, you deserve it. Sometimes just a little time out makes all the difference in the world.

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